Monday 3 December 2007

Just a little girl hungry for love

I miss you

I tried to play it cool last night. Special rang me last night and asked if I was still awake. Well when do I ever sleep these days, I thought but gave him a bit less detailed answer. He told me he was very tired but couldn't sleep. He wanted me there. I decided he would have to convince me in some way or I wouldn't go. Give even a tiny hint of affection. I must have come across a bit moody cause he didn't try too hard. After the phone call I was set to bury the whole relationship.

Wish your arms were around me now

An hour later I got a text. After only few words I found myself knocking on his door. Again I'd given in. How stupid can I be? Why can't I play it cool? I'm not 15 anymore, I should have learned not to be so bloody full on already. But how can I when I could spend my whole night just looking at him sleeping. When the sun starts to rise and I'm still running my hands through his hair.

Promise you won't run away...

I finally fell asleep and had a weird soldier type of dream. I couldn't find my ammo and I got shot. Suddenly I was in the hospital and Special was there. I finally got the courage to say what I had wanted to say for ages.

...but I love you

I woke up and for a minute I thought I had actualy said it to him. It was so real I got up in panic and started to get dressed. When I finally realised what was going on I was in such hysterics that there was no way I was going to stay there. He would have seen straight through me. So I looked at him one more time and left.

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